I'm Making a List...Checking it Twice

So....in the spirit of new beginnings that always overwhelm us at the end of a year, I have decided to make a list of what I mean to accomplish in the next year.  Because I have determined that 2011 is MINE!  

Mine mine miiiiiiiiiiiiine!!  >.>

We all know how ridiculously forgetful I am....
...wait, I AM forgetful right?  *ponders*

Therefore, if there is no list for me, there are no accomplishments.  And since I have decided to stop being a complete putz next year, I'm making a list!  I would also be lying if I didn't point out that this blog is inspired by my future yogi vegan Canadian wife, with whom I shall live in our yogalet filled zen household.  ;)

So here goes  *deep breath*....


1. Get it together.  I mean REALLY get it together.  Clean house, financially secure, happy children, happy me kind of together.  I can't even imagine how annoyed my very together lover gets with his flighty,  right brained, impulsive woman.  While I can appreciate my strengths that come from my spatial side, I can also acknowledge the faults that come with it, and work to change said faults.

2. Get in shape.  Not some silly fad diet, but a real lifestyle change that sticks and can only benefit my poor abused and neglected body.  With this goal is an acceptance of the time frame involved.  It will not happen overnight, and it will ONLY happen with true commitment and perseverance.  I'm ready.

3. Be a better person.  This may seem to be a very general, blanket statement, but it's something sorely needed in my life.  I do love myself, finally, but love sees all faults, and I am willing to own mine.  I need to be a better mother, lover, worker and student.  I think the key to this is to not try to be Superwoman.  When you try to do everything perfectly, you fail at it all.  I accept that I won't be the absolute best at everything, but I can be better at being me.

4.  Live without fear.  I'm tired of being afraid, at what the future holds, what my past holds, and of failing.  I'm ready to live in the present, and to live in it fully.  I refuse to be cowed by those who want me to fail, and I'm not going to be afraid of losing the ones who support and love me.  I think that fear causes me to try and push people away, and I don't want to hurt those people anymore.  My love, you have stuck by me through it all and I could never be more grateful.

5. Find my spiritual fit.  I have come to a place in life where faith means something, and I don't want to be a person who has faith out of habit.  WHY do I believe what I believe?  Because my parents said so? I think we have established over the last 14 years that my parents are misled, so where is my place?  I want to really delve into different beliefs and have conversations with God about them.  I am willing to accept whatever path God puts before me without reserve.

So there it is.  My little list.

When I feel like I'm losing my way I will come back here and pull myself back on track.  I'm ready to break out of the rut I put myself in.  I am excited for the first time in a while, and I don't feel like I'm just sitting around waiting for life to begin anymore.  This last month has been an eye opener for me, and I know babe, I have to learn the hard way....but learning anything at all is better than nothing right?  :)

Hmmm......learning the hard way........I feel another list coming on!